7:33 p.m. - 2018-01-15
Happy new year
It is the new year. My dad is now with my sister Jess. I feel less stress that he is with her. I feel sad, as I don’t see him everyday. Work is ok. Hope I can study and pass the EA exam. Tax season is coming up, will be busy. Got a new car in Dec. getting a lot of grey hair. Hoping to exercise more.
6:27 p.m. - 2012-05-20
I need a new job
So lately I feel like I am stuck. I am refinancing my mortgage and it is such a low rate, this is a good thing. I do still have another 5 years or so to pay off my mortgage. And so here is the problem. Of course I would have to go to work to earn my paycheck and pay my mortgage and bills. I used to love my job. I had it for 10 years. Now my job is changing and I don't like it much anymore. I try to like it so that I can continue to work and pay off the mortgage.
I am looking for another job and it's going slowly I think. I do have a prospect, waiting for an interview now. But you know how it is....it is so competitive in the job market. I know i must be brave and ace this thing.
I am so glad that summer is coming and I have 4 weeks until vacation. What a relief.
Thank you for being there for me.
10:22 a.m. - 2012-05-06
Be Strong. Live Your Dreams.
So this morning I called my brother John and ask him to open a credit union account at Navy Federal Credit Union. He told me no he doesn't do that. He just flip me off. I am upset because when he ask for my help I helped him. He doesn't help me though.
And my dad, he drives me crazy, I hate my family. I feel like I am adopted, no one understands me. Oh well I will have to endure like I usually do.
Please help me God!
I don't want to have anything to do with those people anymore.
8:51 p.m. - 2012-03-17
life is one darn thing after another
A lot have happened since my last entry I'm sure. I went to Mrs. Redfern's funeral. I am glad I did. I got to know her and her family, she changed my life. I don't know why, maybe I am getting old, I start thinking about my teachers. The ones that made a difference. It's sad to find out Mrs. Salveter passed away last year as well. Trying to clean up the house. It's hard for me. I feel like the stress is coming on next quarter. I have new classes to prepare for. Then the possibility that my job will lost due to budgets.
I feel trapped as I cannot move to other states because I have to take care of daddy. And he doesn't communicate to me but he wants to live with me. I just feel so stuck, so it frustrates me. I find ways to escape. Life is too damn complicated. I am thankful for everything, but there are always problems. I am thankful my problems are not as severe as others. I feel sad and alone as usual alone because I have to solve my problems alone with no help from anyone. I don't want to help my sibblings because, they never helped me. I have to learn how to deal with it all. And my finance, I want to pay off all my debt. If I lose my job, that will be a problem. The good thing is the business, I like it now. Hope I can continue with it. And my dogs are so sweet, I love them.
9:04 p.m. - 2011-09-27
Trying to Enjoy the Show
I am somewhat in a bind. I feel like my life got all hectic all at once and I need to sort it out. I thought of you my diary and so I am writing, hoping I can find answers. Well the dogs does take away my time. Maybe more than I thought. But the way I see it, they only go to the restroom 4 times a day. I go a hundred times. And I think they are worth it. This new class I got is killing me. I resent my sup for giving it to me. I want to get rid of it. I ditched today, only because I am so tired.
I don't like being this tired. I need a solution. My business is giving me a headache. I decided I am going to just do what I know. I hate doing stuff I don't know. Then thinking about the IRS, they only hire large corp tax person.... and you know how confusing it is. So I am looking at my future, I will be teaching.
I decided to change my company to sole proprietor. Because LLC is giving me a headache. Also save me some money. I am hoping to finish my book and start selling them.
So much to do.
I have to do Techni Tax. Thank God it is due in Dec. My LLC tax for state is due in Oct 15. Coming up. These lesson plans are awful damn it. I have to survive somehow. I feel like my self esteem is not as it should be.
When I change my company to sole proprietor, I will have to change the rest of the records. I also need to get organized. Please help.
I think once my 2 books are selling I will feel better and can relax more.
Thank you for being there. Writing this really helps me, as I have no one to confide in.
Good night need to get up at 2 am and work.
fun fun sweet dreams to me.
I am trying to enjoy the show.
9:56 p.m. - 2011-08-12
Bella and Bebe
So it turns out I now have Bella (white) and Bebe (tan). They are sisters. Bella is 2 yrs and Bebe is 6 mos. They are both sweet and very different in personality. Bella is shy and Bebe is not.
I have been trying to clean up my room this week it is going good. I cancelled my trip to Vegas because of Bebe. If I go, then my dad has to walk both of them and I don't think that is a good idea.
Next week I will be having my period anyways.
I did look at my finances and it seems to be manageable. I do worry about my job. What if budget cut and I am out of a job. That is my concern.
My dogs are wonderful. Change my life. I like having them as pets.
I hope to get all my cleaning done this by end of this weekend. I will try. I am getting bored of it.
Been having had allergies.
See you next time.
2:25 a.m. - 2011-06-27
Bella, my angel
Bella is my angel. I meet her and adopt her for very good reasons I'm sure. She changed my life a lot. Already I am seeing, that I will be walking her everyday. Good exercise for me too. I will go home during the afternoon. Go swimming with dad. Walk Bella. I am thinking I get home at 1 on my short days. I walk her, then go swimming. On my long days I will just walk her and not swim. I will need a hair straightener and a new hair style. I like having a dog so much I want to get 2, but I will take it slow now, now to overdo it. That other puppy is cool too but 2 might be too much to handle.
My sister Jessica, I hope she keeps her word and take the 2 puppies. Then I will just have Bella.
I know I did not clean up today. Shame on me. I am upset about my sisters, they just come whenever they want to. Damn it where is my privacy.
10:09 p.m. - 2011-06-23
Goals for summer
Need to do my lesson plans for summer!I need to do my business tax. Get ready for Las Vegas. Clean up the living room, hoping tomorrow. No excuses. clean my room also. No excuses. Bella will keep me company.
9:37 p.m. - 2011-06-23
Need to get serious and get back to work!
So my cramping is over and that time of the month is over. So no more excuse for not working on my projects. There are so many. I feel like rescheduling my appointment with Wendy and Carina. I want to go to the animal fair instead.
I went to Irvine and to the Orange County Animal Shelter, but did not find anything interesting.
I think I will wait for my puppy! Then I will have Isabella and puppy. That is enough for now. I hope Jessica will take the boy one (white). But knowing how flaky she is, who knows? My AG Ivy is beautiful. She also keep me company.
So I should have everything. Right?
8:36 a.m. - 2011-06-23
Waiting for little Sushi
So Isabella is my little chi. She is a purebred and is beautiful, white and cream. I am waiting to get the puppies. My sister wants the white boy. I am getting the tan girl. They are applehead. I can't wait to get them. My first real experience with with a puppy. Isabella is a perfect dog. She is trained already. Her previous owner trained her. Less work for me. Just need to walk her 3 times a day. It is good exercise for me also.
I want 2 dogs in case one died then I have a back up. Thinking about naming my puppy Cinderella or Sushi. Not sure yet. Maybe Sushi. I hope Sushi and her brother are cute. I have not seen their mom and dad's pictures yet. I did see their other sibblings from the last litter.
Was thinking about going to Irvine and take a look at Avril. Don't know if that will be a waste of time or not. Avril is a purebred. But looks like she's got her ear bit off. Not sure how to make of that. I think I'm going anyways. Want to see her. I'm curious. She looks very original. Did not want the other white dog at Upland. My Bella is cuter.
But how many dogs am I going to have?
9:25 p.m. - 2011-06-12
This weekend I went to Irvine and saw many dogs and chihuahua. I liked Zoe, but the lady require a home check. So today I went to Upland and got my Tinkerbell. She is white and tan a little and she is adorable. A bit shy but very pretty. it cries and growl. Not sure what's up with her. she is beautiful though. there was also another chihuahua there. I wanted to get an adult dog and puppies too.
11:19 p.m. - 2011-06-09
Sushi & Bambi
Need to exchange two parakeet then I will done. I found out that the girl dog is light brown color. That is how I like it. And that they are about 5 lbs. That is how I like it too.
I will get them next Thursday. They will cost $150. The lady at my work is wanting to get my white dog. I spoke for them before anyone else does. What is with her anyways. I am excited! It is going to be great fun to have them.
Good night diary.
I am naming girl Sushi and boy Bambi
11:47 p.m. - 2011-06-05
getting a lot of pets
So I don't know if I am over doing things. Probably, I now have 7 parakeet. I believe that is all I will get. I don't know if I am over doing things or not. I get excited about something and then I over do it? Then it gets old and then I go get something else.
The parakeet, it is fun to watch them. Observe them. Like at the pet store. My doll collection, they are all different. Thinking maybe I will return Kanani. Not sure.
I realize I am getting more gray hair and more forgetful.
I hope I am on the right track, I think I am. Enjoying life to the fullest. I need to finish paying for my place. When my mortgage is paid off. I will be in a better position, of course. Not sure about the puppies I am going to be getting. Why am I getting so many pets? I am substituting them for a man?
I have 6 betta fish. Getting 2 chihuahua.
10:43 a.m. - 2011-05-28
Diet is going good
So my SlimFast diet is going good. I was hungry last night and ate 2 extra snacks so 200 calories more than I should. I hope after being on this diet for a few more days, I will have gotten used to it and not have to eat any extra snacks and stay on my 1200 cal diet plan.
I am thinking about getting some bars and substitute a bar with a shake, but I do like the shake.
At BJ I tried the porkchop yesterday I got 2 so I an have it again today. I like the fish more but the Porkchop is delicious also. Hmmm, gave me an idea to get take out at Dave and Buster. Lacy's Chicken, yummmy.
My parakeet is running in the cage when I try to get it out. So I think I need to hold it more. I am more chose to my conure.
I need coffee. I will get some now.
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